Praying for Stellan

I have been following the story of Baby Stellan and am so burdened for this little guy. You can click on the picture of Stellan on the side of my blog and it will take you to his Mama's blog. He is having heart surgery right now. I pray for this little boy, pray for Dr. A. and pray for his Mom and Dad and family as they wait. This is a very risky surgery.

"As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you...." ~ Isaiah 66:13

Praying Stellan's Mama will know and feel this verse.

And yes, I am wearing my Orange!

Being real.....

I often feel like I am to be normal and act as if I am okay with things. I for the most part am okay with things. I feel as a Christian I have Christ who can help me through things so should I be down? I can draw my strength from Him. I also feel like there are so many people who are going thru some really tough things. I mean really tough. My life is like a cake walk compared to theirs. I often am so burden for them and do pray for them. I tell myself, it could be worse. And trust me, I DO know it could be worse. But....I must be real. I am struggling. Not sure if it is hormones or what, but I am struggling.

There...I said it. Life is really good, but I am struggling. I am down and can't shake it. I know I will, but it doesn't feel like it tonight. I know a couple of Mom's who have 3 kids all the same age as mine. I find myself watching them and thinking - How do they do it? They are sooo busy. I just don't know how they do it. HELLOOOOOO......I am THAT Mom. I know Avery will be one soon, but I guess I am ready to admit it - It is really tough having 3 little ones under the age of 5 and I am not supermom. Don't get me wrong, a ton of joy comes with it and I would not trade it for anything, but wow....which end is up?? What day is it?? I have to do laundry again?? Didn't I just clean up this room? For real....you are asking if you can go to the bathroom??? GO!!! I think you get my point....it can be crazy around here. I know I will miss it when they are gone, but I just have to get this off of my chest and out in the open. I don't have it all together, my house is not clean, I have been short with the kids, and frankly my attitude sucks.

I know I will get past this little funk I am in. I will get back to enjoying my days and my kids. I just am not right now and I hope that is normal and okay.

So there it is....me being real. It isn't all roses in the Jackson household, but I do know it will be soon. I just need to work through some things and find a couple of quiet moments for me to spend with God. Not sure how or when, but I will.

Now back to your regularly scheduled program..... :)