Being real.....

I often feel like I am to be normal and act as if I am okay with things. I for the most part am okay with things. I feel as a Christian I have Christ who can help me through things so should I be down? I can draw my strength from Him. I also feel like there are so many people who are going thru some really tough things. I mean really tough. My life is like a cake walk compared to theirs. I often am so burden for them and do pray for them. I tell myself, it could be worse. And trust me, I DO know it could be worse. But....I must be real. I am struggling. Not sure if it is hormones or what, but I am struggling.

There...I said it. Life is really good, but I am struggling. I am down and can't shake it. I know I will, but it doesn't feel like it tonight. I know a couple of Mom's who have 3 kids all the same age as mine. I find myself watching them and thinking - How do they do it? They are sooo busy. I just don't know how they do it. HELLOOOOOO......I am THAT Mom. I know Avery will be one soon, but I guess I am ready to admit it - It is really tough having 3 little ones under the age of 5 and I am not supermom. Don't get me wrong, a ton of joy comes with it and I would not trade it for anything, but wow....which end is up?? What day is it?? I have to do laundry again?? Didn't I just clean up this room? For real....you are asking if you can go to the bathroom??? GO!!! I think you get my point....it can be crazy around here. I know I will miss it when they are gone, but I just have to get this off of my chest and out in the open. I don't have it all together, my house is not clean, I have been short with the kids, and frankly my attitude sucks.

I know I will get past this little funk I am in. I will get back to enjoying my days and my kids. I just am not right now and I hope that is normal and okay.

So there it is....me being real. It isn't all roses in the Jackson household, but I do know it will be soon. I just need to work through some things and find a couple of quiet moments for me to spend with God. Not sure how or when, but I will.

Now back to your regularly scheduled program..... :)